My Shrink told me religion may be the center of my problems...

I got a new doctor named Dr. Glover...He is a specialist in PTSD, working intensely with Vietnam vets...He told me after I related to him some episodes I have had in the past that I may be seeking clarification on religion. I told him I wasn't religious, that if I had to categorize myself, I considered myself to be a Buddhist Christian...He said the confusion may account for many of the nightmares that I have about evil and fallen angels and asked me if I would do more research on the subject...My Grandma was Buddhist and my Mom is a devout Christian...I find myself seeking a world philosophy where I am agnostic, and lean towards no one religion....Buddhism isn't a religion...It is a philosophy detailed from a man who became a Buddha...There are a few who have reached enlightenment, a state of nirvana...Dr. Glover asked me if people pray to a Buddha...And I said not really, they light incense to a figure in some places, but Buddha is still not a god...He asked me this because he knows the stricture of worshipping false idols...I do not have buddha statues at home...Neither would I really call myself a practicing Buddhist...I feel there is something to be said for his philosophies...And I made the connection after reading "The Zen Teachings of Christ"...After being in Cuba and learning about the babolowo, I have to say they are truly diligent in trying to figure out the nature of the spirit world in relation to the living...It is a full-time job to be a babalowo, constantly having to make connections and read signs...Though some may argue them to be mystics, they prove to me that religion is a constant practice and belief constantly changes...I only know one thing, that I don't know anything...What do I believe? In my unconscious, I dreamt I was a fallen angel stuck on earth where I had to do battle and because I became tainted by this existence, I cannot go back to heaven...I chose to fight for God...Until there is a wipe of the slate so to speak, I cannot go back and I had a vision that God was crying because he lost so many angels to this battle...I do not relate myself to Lucifer because I have never been jealous of God's love for others...I do, however believe that this dream relates that I was, at the time, tired of my existence...Sad for the state of humanity...Because with all this technology, all this history, man still just seems to make mistakes all the time...And this whole other idea I have about seven generations affecting the present generation, it just seems that people are getting more and more "bad" or "infected by negativity"...I hate to not be an optimist when it comes to the human spirit, but I have lived 'til now with my experiences with the world...Not to say that people won't surprise you...