I knew 33 would be life-changing...I just didn't realize it would be such a dramatic year for the globe, too...Man, tsunamis, floodings, tornadoes, war, and yet I have reached another year. I made it. I never thought I would. That sounds morbid, but really it isn't...It's hopeful. I'd been superstitious about this year...I didn't know whether or not to take the bible literally...It is true the weight of the world rested upon my shoulders, and I was imprisoned...and all I could think about were my niece and nephew, the children...I let that get in the way of a bad relationship with a good guy...I lost a job that I was really good at because of it...I'd been displaced for months and then I all at once got settled into a permanent situation. I'd felt a lot like Dante this year...Walking around the circles of purgatory...I slipped into hell a couple of times...For instance, I walked into a drink store with every possible drink made in mankind very thirsty, but I could not buy from the devil behind the register...
But I also camped out in the park in the cold of the end of December and I dreamed I was a Freezer...A Freezer is someone who in WWII was known to handle extreme cold very well...Camping out at the park is pretty dangerous considering they just pulled a body out of the Vale of Cashmere...I spent several nights outside walking the streets, wandering...wondering what I was looking for...Instead I saw a lot of things...A lot of things I'd rather not talk about...That's how I spent my New Year's...I was supposed to go to Times Square with this lady and her posse that I met at Russ' wedding from NH and my friend asked me to hang out, too, but I did not want to kiss him at midnight...That's not how I wanted to start this year...Instead I hung out on the streets not knowing what to do...How was I going to forget about the guy who ruined me for love?...I love him beyond comprehension...
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